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2008-08-03T12:05:00.003+08:00

I wanna post an entry, but i am lazy to write. i found this video in my handphone. and thus went to youtube to find, and yesh! i got this video playing on my blog. its TOUCHING!

Because I am a girl...

2008-06-29T15:57:00.011+08:00

friday
went out with yh, ninet, waeting, and seb. hmmm yes, pm still got her reasons (or excuses) not to join us. hai. thats sad, but nvm. so it was jus another gathering. a five-minus-one for life gathering. ate at westmall bk and went csc for fun. we had pool , arcade and bowling.

ms CAMWHORE, there you have it.

and mr CAMWHORE, there you have it, again!

and what do u expect from an @jc student? yes, one with great thoughts and plans, even on the pool table. MR Seboobs.

then at the arcade, they played some RFS machine, which i suck at it thoroughly. but look at their retarded faces. they dun give a hoot about my camera.

what vibrant smiles they got...WOAH!

then, lastly, bowling. haha. lets look at the scores. i m being fair by showing everyone's results. although, i mus sae that MISS LEE owned us quite well... *CLAPS* anyway, XLT, its me (xh luv turtle), Y is yuheng, W is waeting, 9 is ninet (9T), and S is sebastian.

the first set of games

then the second set

and yeap, we had great fun.

saturdae
i went out with my family in the evening. reached vivo at 7.15pm, hopefully be able to get four seats for the movie '10 Promises to My Dog'. but unlucky us, yes, SHIT!, onli left places for loners. so we chose 'Get Smart' and it's left with only the first row. we cant hesitate any longer, with the long queue behind us, ok, we shall have row A, seats 03-06.

it was a show not too bad. humourous! =] i shall rate it, 7/10!

2008-06-26T12:44:00.001+08:00

it sounded very retarded, but ENJOY! =]

2008-06-19T02:09:00.003+08:00

im dead bored. let me think of something to say... SPECIAL NUMBER 10!
G O H X U A N H A N = 10 letters
born on 23/05 >> 2 + 3 + 5 = 10
in the yr 91 >> 9 + 1 =10
whateva man....

what does this picture of a cute baby baboon reminds u of? hmmm. lets put ourselves in deep contemplation. eureka! i KNOW......

2008-06-18T15:26:00.001+08:00

I ain't perfect! so, dun expect me to score for damn terms. i will screw them, they will own me. damn!

2008-06-15T18:11:00.003+08:00

alright! wat do u sae after a haircut? i sae cool! after 3 months, it was like wearing a female's hairstyle. after todae, i feel so much better (after much persuasion from Mum, cos i wanted to save money, amma gd boy, u see)

PS: see, i had made my hp cam useful todae.

2008-06-11T01:20:00.002+08:00

rite..... ppl cui-ing me to blog something. i got things to blog about alr la, so dun worry dun worry.

so! let's seeeee. on last wed, we had an outing. had some jap food at MOF and you guys are so stingy la. we go out like once in a blue blue blue moooon and u all order something soooo cheap, and yh, is there even a need to take out ur hp to calculate the total cost?? haha.. k la. we are jus some poor brats la. we need save money for our bowling games rite? and yes, that stupid sissy yuheng owned us, ME! =[=[ mayb bowling is jus a game for females, in this very context only. and we were like rushing and chionging to finish the game cos we were afraid we might miss the last freaking train then we wuld hav to camp in marina^2. i cant rmb every detail we said, joked about vividly, but i know we hav great fun. it would b better wif peiming then we will hav a 'five for life' reunion, but everytime her dad jus hinders our longed reunion! damn! okok.. caring dad caring dad... 'for goodness sake man! shit!' anyway it still feels like a 'five for life' reunion cos me n yuheng received our super duper belated birthday cards. (sorry, i dun hold a cam, and m not a cam whore, so no pictures, will try to post pics when i find one dae tt i should utilise my hp/digi cam) it was so sweet of the girls to make something simple yet meaningful for us, the boy and the other 'girl'. rite.. i hav fun, and will alwaes, alwaes hav lots to tok about even though we are now in diff schools. tts wat WE call, or you call, CHEMISTRY!

hmmm...then another fun event i had was wif my 2e4 friends on mondae. the dae b4 i meant. junda smsed me to ask if i wanna meet him. lol.. sure thing man! but im sorry i was late, my mum insisted on fetching me and shit, we WERE UNSURE ABOUT HOW TO reach yewtee met station, but yes, we did in the end la. we jus freakin walked in the condo like nobody's business, or should i sae the security guards are FEASTING ON SNAKES!(nvm, if u dun understand, nothing intellectual anyway) ok then now, me n junda WERE UNSURE ABOUT HOW TO go to ym's house, but yes, again, we still made our wae there ourselves. and wat the shit! all of them guitar-hero-ing for like 2 hours. and that was the minimum i calculated. then joe, jh, wj, audrey, serene, shafiq, komala and (is there anyone esle?), ya they came.. and i dunno y, seriously dunno y, we crowded to see wenjing eating nasi lemak. crap la.. then when i tot of going down, audrey said 'whu wan to eat potatoe chips?' argh!!! nvm nvm... tts how we kill time... how we bond, i guess, bonding by lookin at ppl eating. cool isnt it? finaly made our wae down, and we had bb game. and yes, i din eat much. and though i paid $12 for 1 chicken wing, 2 otahs and some nuggets, i guessed its worth it. the fun and sarcasm we had amongst ourselves were enjoyable, seriously. and if i were to eat until i think its worth my $12, my sore throat wun hav recovered so fast. so i hav made the right choice. took photos after joe and kenneth were chased out by an indian security guard, surprisingly, cos it was alr ten pm. my condo isnt so strict la.. but nvm. better abide than be unhappy. aiyo! ok.. photos, and i mean realli sectional photos. we had wat co group, 4e5, pa group, 187 bus gang, wat the shit! oh ya, i was shitter, cos earli in the evening tt dae, i had audrey (from ajc) standing on my extreme right, jiong le (from cjc) standing on my right and me (from acjc). then we took a photo. Ajc + cjc = acjc. ya la, i said i was shitter rite? i alr scolded myself la. but pls try to laugh. HAHA! nvm =.= and sadly, no one stayed overnite, and i wished i could, but sadly i couldnt, sore throat was so bad that i had difficulty swallowing my saliva. went up to take our bags and left ym's house.

here's a big stanza for Mr KHENG YIK MING, our SAINT, i called him.
thanks dude. and yes, sae thank you to ur mother for helpin us clear it. i wasnt good at clearing stuff and felt remorseful cos we were having fun takin photos while ur mother n maid had to do sai kang for us. sorry. but a big thank you for organising this for us. a great gathering after 2 yrs. perhaps we could go chalet next time? cos we would not hav to clear up like shit. and i dun hav to feel pai seh.

ms gladys is leaving soon on 13july (12july NIGHT!). i hope we can send her off mannnnn. but its damn mn! and i wonder whu would be able to make it unless Mr. Bus Driver decides to make the last bus at o1oo... sigh.....

2008-05-22T20:51:00.001+08:00

2008-05-11T02:24:00.001+08:00

I am a failure. this is no emo entry. but everything's jus down for me.

I hate facing the music, when it's only where i can turn to.
Get lost Music. Love you Music.

the truth sucks!

2008-05-11T00:30:00.001+08:00

When you look me in the eyes...

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head up high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms,
I know that it's forever.
I just gotta let you know,
I never wanna let you go.

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

2008-05-04T17:39:00.000+08:00

FIVE FOR LIFE!

2008-04-14T23:00:00.000+08:00

my eyes dried up when you appear in front of me, because im afraid once i blink, you will disappear and i will nv get to see you again.

2008-04-07T22:06:00.002+08:00

I miss Swiss CO! and my lovely juniors! esp. YingQi and Peijin! i love them sooo damn much!

im suffering from utter fatigue now. and yes, home is when hatred sparks off. home is just a place for me to sleep. it is jus a four sided, window-less box to me now...

2008-04-01T21:11:00.000+08:00

2008-03-25T19:58:00.004+08:00

if tears can turn bac time, i dont mind crying for another 100 yrs.

sundae, 23 march, the dae i waited for it to come and NOT to come. Swiss Cottage Chinese Orchestra performed at Reuplic Polytechnic @ its Cultural Centre. To me, people were no longer the same, the place wasnt the same, but the past remains. the happy memories i had in SCCO alwaes live in my very heart.

went to school via bus. never once loved to take 945 to school, but i finally found the enjoyment of it. oh well... called ms lim cos she hadnt reached. she asked me to help her buy batteries. and how i wished i have the chance to do that next concert =[. reached school earli cos we, the yangqin-ers had to tune our 140+ strings before the actual concert. and slowly, more co members came and moved the instruments to the foyer. and i carried MY GUZHENG and the yangqins. and again, i will wish to do so AGAIN IN THE FUTURE even though i noe it hurts my hands and back sooo badly.

everything up the bus. wasnt happy though, nvm... fortunately, reached RP within 20-30mins. ok.. so everything moved down then stage was set up. the backstage rooms were up to standard, but too bad we cant go in and out of it anytime we want, ms lim refrained us from do so, cos she was afraid she cant find us. rehearsal, yeap! i dun think it was tt perfect, and no offense, i dun think it was ready for concert, BUT i dunno why i still enjoyed it. i changed? i wan SCCO to maintain the silver-to-gold standard and YET i said it's ok, i enjoyed it despite the many unharmonious tunes?? oh perhaps i changed.. i changed to a person whu treasure and cherish every moment i was with MY SCCO.

5.30pm. the doors were opened for the public to enter. i saw my parents. i saw yuheng, peiming, waeting, jingkai, ninet and her sister. i saw my og, Oikebana. i saw Zhiwei and her friend. and yeap, everything started, i would sae, quite unofficially, but it's not abrupt, which was good. =] everything seemed to go so smoothly. and during interval, i went to find all my friends and my family members. i saw weizhe, joson, shufen, shangfei at the 2nd lvl. they dun seem to recognise me anymore, oh well.. its ok. i said hi to them, and a moment of cold silence? cos we seem to hav a critical crisis of generation gap between us....hai. and so, i received SMSes. im sorry i din accompany you =[. and zhiwei wanted to give me rose, she couldnt find me, neither do i. sat alone on stage so that she can see me, and ended up deb passed it to me. rushed up to give my mama to keep for me and rushed down bac on stage again. and yes, i literally RUSHED down the stairs. cos two bells rang alr, signifying the end of the 20mins interval.

yeap! technology and urban surfer had great responses from the audience. everyone tot they were realli well done and i have the same sentiments. then it was turkish march. jus the four yangqin-ers, i wished everyone, from my left ot my right, peijin, ms lim and yingqi, all the best. and we walked out. and yes, it started.

i nv nv nv tot of wanting it to end quickly so that i can end the whole thing and go backstage. it does not mean tt i wan to stay on stage long cos im a DRAMA QUEEN. its jus tt i enjoyed the moment where i finally get to perform with my senior, Miss Lim Lay Har, who is now the teacher i/c of SCCO, i get to perform with my two lovely juniors, Ngoh Pei Jin and Lin Ying Qi. i treasure every note we played together. i feel the bond, the indescribable bond we had since i known them for like 3.5yrs. yes, there were mistakes, i admit. but it was so much better than before. again, there were UNHARMONIOUS TUNES, but, y did i enjoy it when im someone who expects good music? i dunno why, i jus have a NOSTALGIA FOR SCCO!

then we had our last few orchestral pieces, then, 3 encore pieces, which i seem to hear ppl say 'HUHHHHHH'.. lol.. but whu cares. as long as we, as an Orchestra enjoys it, we DO it! everything OFFICIALLY ended when Mr Liew made some speechless speech (cos he said he dunno how to describe the great standard we had, which i think its....... quite......... NVM! ) Oikebana called me and they took photos with me. THANK YOU for stayin bac to wait for me, AC peeps! =]

Thank you to everyone whu supported Swiss Cottage Chinese Orchestra, and me, even though im already an alumni member.
Thank you Miss Lim for askin me bac to play Turkish March with them.
Thank you Miss Toh for the carrot cake which salvaged my empty, gastric-juicies-filled stomach.
Thank you Miss Ong for saving me from the security office tt dae.
Thank you Mdm Xu for... not ignoring me whenever she sees me. HAHA
Thank you Mr Lee for askin me if i wan to play XING KONG using gz on sat in front of the prof.
Thank you Mr Yeo for, again, teaching us how to control the dynamics of Turkish March.
Thank you the other 2 instructors!
Thank you Dad, Mum, Sis, Grandparents to come to my last concert wif SCCO.
Thank you Oikebana, my dearest ACJC peeps, Adelicia, Eileen, Petrina, Ross, Zhimin, Bryan, Junxiong, Mario, Weijie for coming to support me and my dearest Orhcestra and for your flower!
Thank you Zhiwei for her rose.
Finally, Thank you to YOU who made my dae a tired but fulfilled one. =]

after shifting the instruments bac to co room, i left swiss cottage. and i felt that im graduated from Swiss Cottage Chinese Orchestra the SECOND time... i deeply miss SCCO!

next goal : SYF '09 GOLD!

All the best! Don't have to be your best but to do your best! and the GOLD is attainable and reachable. i hope the next generation of SCCO members will realise this great dream for Everyone who loved and loves SCCO! Thank you!

- a snapshot takes only a fraction of a second, but it lasts forever. -

2008-03-21T00:26:00.001+08:00

EMO-tional!

2008-03-20T23:41:00.002+08:00

Looking back to the past would only hurt me more? I think it's true somehow. Ok, I'm contradicting myself because the more I know it would hurt, the more i want to find out.

Always looking forward to school's dismissal everyday, especially today. But i am getting used to ac's life. and im starting to like sc4. but i noticed, or rather WE noticed, we are seriously SEGREGATED, ie. there are three groups of sc4. hai...

Have been really troubled over the money problem. I wan to collect all the money asap! and so i can hav a heavy burden off my shoulder. Tomorrow, i will meet the people to get money. man! I'm tired. stupid jc life.

Someone told me the chocolate-coated marshmallow costs $1.50 for one. and i gave $2 and i realised i hav got no change cos it's $2 for 1. i hav the thought to support his class cos he's from swiss and yet he lied to me. oh well, i tot he had no qualities of an ACSIAN, one without integrity. lets look from the bright side, im support JAZREEL who thanked me for supporting her class. He, on the other hand, is just a non-chinese Chinese. Yes, a sucker u might think!

2008-03-16T02:22:00.003+08:00

this is generalising! but i freaking hate PRCs! look at this video my friend sent me.
http://www.furisdead.com/feat/ChineseFurFarms/

ANTI-FUR! wear synthetic fur, not real fur. no one likes to wear a dead soul on oneself. i would despise anyone whu owns clothings made from real fur. you will be skinned like the raccoon dog in ur next life. you will be stepped on, or smashed into bits. Mainlanders, i curse you terrible death!

2008-03-10T01:04:00.002+08:00

so if i were to wait, i will know what's love. i will forget everything and only rmb the YOU.

before i was going to bed, adelicia called. so annoying la. called me at this hour. after i picked it up, i was shocked! haha. she was leaving for perth and will only b bac on sunday. i din noe bout it.. and she told me she alr checked in or sth... and will b in the plane in a matter of minutes. BON VOYAGE, dpf! =]

tired..... going to bed sooooooon.

P.S. i love you. ANIN!

2008-03-09T13:33:00.001+08:00

You made my piano's keys as COLOURFUL as black and white!

2008-03-06T22:00:00.002+08:00

okok. im blogging now. cos...... i dunno. i changed my class from sc7 to sc4 and i noe no one there!!! im trying hard to make friends so that i will enjoy acjc's life more!

fell sick these few daes. gonna do with the rain la. damn! jus so unpredictable. ytd, i took my jacket wif me, and i din wear it cos i dun feel cold. todae, my mum put it in my bag again, but i took it out. and oh my tian! bio lecture is so coldddddd....my sore throat got worst... nose blocked... eyes more bloodshot.. and blah...

BUT! i dunno y im feeling sick, the weather is so rainy, the sky is soooo gloomy, i still feel........

HAHA.

2008-02-13T22:44:00.001+08:00

okok. i will post a video then. =]

haha. i posted! =]

2008-01-29T21:18:00.000+08:00

Great minds discuss ideas; average minds discuss events; small minds discuss people - Anon

2008-01-25T10:49:00.000+08:00

the anxiety is over! =]

2008-01-09T00:15:00.000+08:00

Without intelligence, a man can live up to a hundred years old but remains a child. With intelligence, a child can do better than a man who has lived a hundred years. - DAOYUAN

2008-01-06T02:36:00.000+08:00

ytd was great! not tt its the last dae of orientation and then i'll b like damn freaking happy cos i will stop my sunburns from aggravating? but fun! =]=] nothing much though... OG outing screwed up, with AP people and bad wet weather.. but eating mac was fun although we din mingle with each other much. KYO KYO KYO KYO JIN!....

jus had my dinner(latest ever), supper(rite), and breakfast(damn earli one). wateva! but it was great friend rice, with some herbal marinated sausage. =] great! enjoyed it, so full till i cant sleep.. though my eyelids are closing up.

i love this cartoon. i love her name too.
sing along, it's not simple!
Oh Lulu!
little lulu, little lulu, with freckles on her skin
always in and out of trouble, but mostly always in
using dad's neck tie for the tail of your kite
using mum;s lipstick for the letters you write
little lulu, little lulu, there's no one quite as smart
cause no matter what you doing, you do it with your heart
shining girls are dancing, there's a sparkle in your eye
well can we look forward to your next surprise
what a surprise!
though the clock says 7.30, its really after 10
looks like lulu's been repairing it again
no, we why? (why?)
you know its true, lu
and you very hard to tame
little lulu we love you
just the same, the same
little lulu, we! love! you! lu! just! the! same!
luluuuuuuuu

2008-01-01T03:07:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR to EVERYONE!

woah! was not very fun eating at LAO PA SAT, a sucky old dirty market which prices of food are very high. veg with worms? 5 mm bbq stingray? egg cost $4? aiya, first time go out eat like tt de 煮炒. and can cheat ppl money? lucky we are a clan of clever people. =] at least maths are A1 standard. (ok, all swiss students have AWESOME standard in their math)

but, it was alil better when we came to the BAY and chatted. and viewed the fireworks in a pensive mood! =] damn engrossed. nv talked for the whole period. (but i waited anxiously for ur call la, haiz.. nvm.. stupid connection jamming!) took photos of the fireworks! NICE!

KEEP IN TOUCH, my friends! =] contact me @ 9029 8450, alwaes!

GOODBYE 2007, and sae WELCOME to 2008, hopefully a GREAT YEAR AHEAD!

i got too many resolutions to list them out! but one of them which topped my never-ending list. IE. BE HAPPY ALWAES!

2007-12-31T02:38:00.000+08:00

我爱你
好爱你
对不起谢谢!

2007-12-27T23:41:00.000+08:00

went for a haircut todae, earli in the dae. fringe and all the lengths are gone. m not totally used to it, feel so naked on top of my head. while waiting for the hairdresser, i saw mr wong, ms toh, mdm xu and mr mak. and mr wong with some super hand sign which i do understand, saying my hair is really long. ok.. of cos i noe that.

yesh! yesh! yesh! i try my best, to compose it, before the 3 weeks of nxt yr end, cos after that it will b hell lot of work. so best before the 3rd week's last dae of next yr. and so, we can........ =]

BAD DAY(that day will nv come when u r here) by cute chipmunks!

2007-12-26T00:28:00.000+08:00

心中的唯一
词曲: 吴宣翰

还记得第一次我傻傻看着你
不敢引你注意我却很高兴

还记得你轻轻问我叫什么名
我紧张到安静只有一个原因

随着时间我们变得更好了
日夜都在谈彼此的快乐
伤心让我了解什么是开心
你让我了解你是雨过天晴

只想告诉心中的唯一
我真的爱上你
愿意为你付出自己
我只想告诉心中的唯一
我们有一个约定
你应该懂它的定义

只想告诉心中的唯一
我爱你要相信
你根本不用怀疑
我只想告诉心中的唯一
会永远在一起
那个人就是特别的你

ps: wei, rmb to call me! i wanna tell u sth.

2007-12-22T23:45:00.000+08:00

2007-12-16T00:39:00.000+08:00

y time passes so fast ar? especially.... thanks for taking care of me. dun worry.

movie marathon these few daes! Warlords, then Alvin and the Chipmunks, then Enchanted. three daes continuously...

going m'sia tomoro. and im really ill. hopefully tomoro, later i meant, will feel better. haiz. nite!

i miss u!

2007-12-11T21:28:00.000+08:00

yesterdae was a fast dae too. i heard u play the cello. woah.... i got floating de feeling. haha. realli wish i can duet wif u... u r not tt bad after all.

had co practise todae. travel agency briefing... like... redundant lei.. except announcements after that la. then practised a no. of songs. was not gd at them without practise. and i realised peijin and yingqi realli got improved... alot alot. they are gd! and sooooo busy until i cant contact u. omg. but was still very happy, cos i did right after the run in the rain. yesh! anyway, ninet, dun b too crestfallen le. u still have to move on de! dry ur tears ba.

fridae going bac sch for luggage check. and sat? mayb for the last practise. and sundae leave for m'sia trip. wan to b bac ASAP man! dunno y.. haha!

wat made me attract to u? YOU! Haha!

2007-12-10T01:41:00.001+08:00

why did ytd, the 9th of december, pass so fast? when did i realli enjoy watch movies? when did window-shoppin became so interesting? haha.

there wun b happiness when there is not sadness. this statement, i feel, though is subjective, but, aiya.. it still makes sense rite? i onli noe... the promise is unbreakable. she's still my mum no matter wat. but i hope u will understand becos after four yrs... alrite alrite.. i shall keep it to myself.

i will nv leave u... thanks for the "AVOGARDO"!

since fate had made it this way, i'll learn to enjoy it. and i realli love being wif u, its my second MUSIC.

2007-12-10T01:19:00.000+08:00

Lang Lang had learned this technique from Daniel Barenboim, a famous conductor and pianist. Apparently this "orange technique" helps relax the wrist and the hands too! nevertheless, he still so pro!

2007-12-06T02:51:00.000+08:00

i realli wish i can play this wif u... there'll b a dae. at 3.04! thats wat im waiting! [=]

2007-12-06T01:09:00.000+08:00

went to dan's house to do recording again. ah..... did another four pieces. was satisfied with two pieces only. hmmm.... =]

when i was back, you called to tell me your troubles. i was happy, yet SAD! u dun slog le la. haiz! gave u a piece, yes, it's the present i was tokin bout in the previous post. supposed to b a xmas present, but u jus insisted on hearing it. haiya! and dun tear AGAIN! alrite? =[ u dun hav to learn how to compose, cos i would already appreciate it when u sae you would play for me! haha! hope u realli like it.

another one for wae ting, her birthday present. first person to hav this birthdae song not a typical four-line birthday song, but one more complicated de...yeah!

5th nite! and yet, the bruise is still so conspicuous. it doesnt hurt as much, but it's still 4" by 2", no shrinkage at all! damn! there my dad went 'see la.... gei kiang'. and you said it too! =[

2007-12-05T00:51:00.000+08:00

对了, 把我弄哭是一件幸福的事 =]

i mustered all my courage i got from all my meridians in my body (=.-) to tell u that. im sorry i hav made that promise to my mum, but i guess u noe how i really feel le... upon seeing that piece of message, m so touched.

晴天娃娃也有哭的时候啊！

PS: this present is jus for you, you'll know it soon.

2007-12-03T01:20:00.000+08:00

simple things make me smile. yes, they do.

all the best to you!

2007-12-01T23:50:00.000+08:00

went bac to sch todae. alittle awkward, tuned my gz, ok.. not MINE anymore, so i tuned the SCH's gz. ate carrot cake wif my jnrs, those were the daes when we chatted happily even though it can b so lame, i dun mind! =] it was piano lesson after that. i havent had piano lessons for months, and teacher dun seem happy bout my performance. haiz. i promise i will practise, alrite? =]

yes, coincidental it is! after i washed my hands, u called le! haha. many many many hours....but they seem snapshots of a digital camera. flashes of light, and gone..... the truth i told u, its simple actualli, the future will be answered by TIME. for now, ur alwaes my QTWW, QTWW!!! haha. at 11.48pm, the most impt LAST sentence will LAST eternally. and 1148, when 4 + 8 , its 12, when 11 + 12, its 23, (im damn lame!)

你知道吗？你把我弄哭是一件幸福的事...

2007-12-01T01:04:00.000+08:00

sister's bac lo! came bac jiu pek cek. bag lost when it was transported from hk to s'pore. was sent to our house at 8plus. and now, she's snoring awae. looks like she hadnt had a good rest in hk. sweet dreams, jie!

had dinner at 11.15pm. i meant supper, yoz! cant sleep now. have to stay awake awhile awhile more before the tummy DEVELOPS.

total lethargy! u dun wan share, made me feel like shit. but nvm. u did in the end. haha. talkin to u on the phone makes me lose the sense of gravity again! (u noe wat it means now =.=) haha. and im getting used to ur wae of talkin. i noe u hate me for teasing the wae u talk. im sorry la. sadsad! and now, realli, i am wondering why did u ask tt qn? do u realli noe what i'm thinkin? haha. be optimistic! be contented easily! and many more. i rmb... thanks! 晴天娃娃!

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影在梦里我才抱得到
没有太阳月亮还是闪耀
你的理由我根本不需要

2007-11-30T01:14:00.001+08:00

i lost my sense of gravity!

2007-11-28T22:07:00.000+08:00

Follow the notes upon the journey
At the first sight marks one's destiny
Upon the voyage come to an end
Return lies within hasty keys
---Secret

2007-11-28T02:10:00.000+08:00

now i really understand bout doing sth that u r realli happy doing it. you dun hav to b good at it, or i should say, if u hav the heart to put an effort in it, no matter wat, u will succeed. and im realli enjoying wat i m doing now. doing so, hopefully, can bring joy to others.

true love? true friendship? i realli realli dun understand. i m alr a 16 and 3/4 yrs old person and i dunno wat is a true relationship, whether love or friendship, i m equally confused. the onli true thing is kinship. that i would put my ass to bet that its 100% true. no matter wat, my parents wun not bear grudges, even if i m realli in the wrong.

u brought me happiness!

u too!

bedtime stories every nite made my brain realli dry! HAHA!

2007-11-27T23:22:00.001+08:00

2007-11-26T23:41:00.001+08:00

What's the difference between a good lawyer and a great lawyer?

A good lawyer knows the law. A great lawyer knows the judge.

2007-11-26T21:17:00.000+08:00

one week has passed, and i really miss my sister. this fridae, she will be back! and qinxin they all went to shang hai ytd! CJAM went Melbourne todae at 6 plus in the evening. i miss them... yes, they gonna b back soooo soon! (yea rite!)

holidaes! ah!!! busy as they were! bored at home. playing piano is all i do la. haha. composed one song for ms tay, another for deb.mei and one more for waeting! (a birthdae song, first song to hav some crap lyrics,yesh!) really hope they will like them!

have been busy, so couldnt return to scco! i miss sitting there in front of conductor lee. i nearly forgot how he looked like haha! better practise my qing dian b4 i return. and will b going bac soon this fri and sat, before ms lim blasts into my ears! haha! (urgent explaination needed rite!? omg!k, i shall explain) try to persuade my happy friend, LYH, to go back wif me. anw, i doubt there're enough yqs! oh ya! how bout nat!? my chio snr! shall call her too!

hmm? this girl is realli weird! haha. but i like her (my nice friend). she's so formal. wat esle? FORMAL! asked me weird qns, ok, which i dun mind at all, and fond of classical music! cool! gonna catch a concert at vch with her this thurs. i nv watch a concert by snyo b4. its gonna b so interesting. there my mum went again, her conservative style... argh! crap!

friend intro me to go pub? haha. and drink rum? omg! NO WAY!

2007-11-25T01:33:00.001+08:00

2007-11-22T17:49:00.000+08:00

nice song yea?
by A1!

One In Love

Have you seen your sunset,
Fade beneath a rain cloud
Have you ever chased your dreams away
Did you ever think that,
Life was just a highway
A never ending road of lonely days

There are times we cry
And reach out to the sky
For the strength we need
To hold our head up high

All we have to do now,
Is love one another
Sisters and brothers,
Can all live as one
And all we have to do now,
Is show one another
We all need each other,
To live as one in love

Have you seen a sunrise,
Promising you daylight
When all you need is shelter from the storm
Have you ever felt that,
Love was just an island
You can't survive on love all on your own

There are times when i,
Need to reach inside
For the strength I need,
To hold my head up high

All we have to do now,
Is love one another
Sisters and brothers,
Can all live as one
And all we have to do now,
Is show one another
We all need each other,
To live as one in love

If we push aside the blame,
For the tears and the pain
You know love can reign,
And the world will smile again

If we push aside the blame,
For the tears and the pain
You know love can reign,
And the world will smile again
The world will smile again

2007-11-15T00:41:00.000+08:00

O's over! woohoo! tomoro, i mean later... its GRAD TEA at pan pacific. hopefully i can upload some photos. cos i nv upload any b4. =]

lets see this... what's emo!? lame it is, but no harm viewing it

2007-11-05T17:48:00.001+08:00

let's see who owns us in YANGQIN... hmm.. i mean GERMAN YQ...

2007-11-02T22:32:00.001+08:00

2007-10-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

In mathematics, the real numbers may be described informally as numbers that can be given by an infinite decimal representation, such as 2.4871773339…. The real numbers include both rational numbers, such as 42 and −23/129, and irrational numbers, such as π and the square root of 2, and can be represented as points along an infinitely long number line.

In mathematics, a rational number is a number which can be expressed as a ratio of two integers. Non-integer rational numbers (commonly called fractions) are usually written as the vulgar fraction a / b, where b is not zero. Each rational number can be written in infinitely many forms, such as 3 / 6 = 2 / 4 = 1 / 2, but it is said to be in simplest form when a and b have no common divisors except 1 (i.e., they are coprime).

In mathematics, an irrational number is any real number that is not a rational number — that is, it is a number which cannot be expressed as a fraction m/n, where m and n are integers, with n non-zero.

The integers (from the Latin integer, which means with untouched integrity, whole, entire) are the set of numbers including the whole numbers (0, 1, 2, 3, …) and their negatives (0, −1, −2, −3, …). In non-mathematical terms, they are numbers that can be written without a fractional or decimal component, and fall within the set {… −2, −1, 0, 1, 2, …}. For example, 65, 7, and −756 are integers; 1.6 and 1½ are not integers.

not too late to know b4 EMATHS O. =]=]

2007-10-24T23:37:00.001+08:00

im bored. O lvls, i love... but failing liao. forget it. see this video. MJ is freaking virtuosos! he's onli 13!

2007-09-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

Sorry, Blame it on Me

As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for

I’m sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect

I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
I’m sorry I’m not always there for my son
I’m sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can’t sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

[Bridge]
I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

[Chorus]
You can put the blame on me [4x]
Said you can put the blame on me [3x]
You can put the blame on me

Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn’t know what to do
Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings

He got a second wife and you didn’t agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I’m sorry that you had to do it on your own
I’m sorry that I went and added to your grief
I’m sorry that your son was once a thief
I’m sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would’ve listened and not be so bad
I’m sorry your life turned out this way
I’m sorry that the FEDS came and took me away

[Bridge]

I’m sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I’m sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I’m sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young
I’m sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say
Why doesn’t anybody wanna take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I’m just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I’ll take that blame
Even though the blame’s on you [3x]
I’ll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me [2x]
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me

2007-09-18T13:02:00.000+08:00

when was the last time i blogged? and yes... one week has past. and exams were relatively... i would sae... NOT GD. yea, screwed eng (we did badly as a class and not the top class for english, by ms ee), ss (answer seq b) wrongly and crapped the whole sbq) and chemistry(9 careless marks and many due to lack of intellectuality) YET, i still hav the cheek to blog? haha. whu cares?

oh yes, i love my new darling. she feels, sounds, and looks BLOODY HELL EXPENSIVE. you never never want to touch it. it feels... marvellous.. u see? it feels even better without my bandage on.

now talking bout my bandage, all the bilayers dropped, leaving the new young skin. perhaps the areas hav not develop the sebaceous glands and so no sebum. i mean, those areas kept crackin and one of them bled. but on the road to full complete recovery.

tomoro is AMaths P2 and i hav not studied. perhaps i've lost the drive since it is the last paper. and i mean.. NO! it isnt. for the past 3 yrs, exams over means exams over. but not for this yr, when 3 weeks after the end of prelims will be the dreadful O lvls. it is always bound to have a point of anti-climax after the end of exams, no matter prelims, or Os. and i realli hate that.. y? cos u realise u din do ur best, u carelessly lost marks =.- or as simple as, FORGOT TO DO!

argh. time to eat and sleep. stupid sciences caused me to miss my bed more intensively. and so, i hav to stop these miserable misses for good.....

2007-09-07T22:07:00.000+08:00

the week gonna past, so fast! and this means here our exams come again, yea..AGAIN! i seriously loathe this feeling. u see, i've been holidae mood-like for bout 5 daes liao.. suddenly back to serious mode, i realli cant do it. face it will be the answer. argh!

there were three extra flesh on my left hand, while another one on my right. i kept calling them flesh flesh flesh.... but its called, after i read the whole instruction leaflet on the medical sth.. i dunno, intercellular lipid bilayer. its made of fats! oh my fk! fats growin externally. the one on my thumb got blood capillaries in it. looks like a pretty well-developed one, branched out in a labyrinth manner. but the salicylic acid, the medicine i m using, penetrated thru the whole layer, and cleared the whole ppiece of bilayer. it came out, dangling on my finger. i cut it off. and it feels great! haha.

todae, two other bilayers came out. i mean i cut them off, cos they were in the same state like the previous one. smaller ones they were, and the capillaries were negligible. waiting for the last one on my right, then i can play my piano as freely as before. cant take it. bandage on my left hand is hurting la.

all the best, for prelims and os! im still blogging, wat does tt reflect about me? im a slacker? oh shit! i said i wanna pull my socks up, perhaps they lost their elasticity and so shrinking back. crap! =|

2007-09-04T00:35:00.000+08:00

i dont know why i lost my interest in snails and find them metaphorically and literally LAME. a suddens surge of CHOPINatic, a term i created cos im a CHOPIN FANATIC, which sums up to be CHOPINatic.

reminisce the old times. =] found out that my K2 friend's email is on my list for more than 4 months and it was onli saturdae than i noe it was her. i also managed to talk to my pri1 friend. was on cloud nine, seriously.

went to rat-a-too-ee... and 881! lol. both have touching endings.. and i can conclude that catering to Singapore's domestic market = catering to a whole lot of old people. y? they sae 881 is booming as every week past, becos of ageing population, and 881 attracts old people. but ok.. im not old, im jus curious bout the show. still got laser beam between durian and papaya! tts utterly unrealistic, and i dun enjoy that scene at all =.=. other than that, it proves its rating quite alrite.

tomoro, i mean later at 9am, going to sch. need to clarify all my doubts, hopefully ALL! then wed, meeting wif uncles and aunties at sh's house. hopefully, again, to revise all the prac. skills well done!

EGEO. PHY. CHEM. BIO. EMATH. AMATH.

wat do i see in u?
DUMBness and CUTEness! lol.
CUTE DUMMY! imissu.

2007-08-02T23:35:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for a long time..
busy i was, i guess..
tomoro SS test.. gonna get owned by the paper..
even though i studied a lil.

prelims apporaching..
Os approaching..
i realli starting to feel the pressure.
play time realli realli over.
lots to do. better pull my socks all the wae up above my head liao.
i dun wan to b hopeless.

the last 500m is for me to sprint..
i will do it slick, fast and smooth!
let me do it.

2007-07-02T00:21:00.000+08:00

went to nlb wif qh. =]
studied for some 4 hours and slacked 5 hours plus.
managed to clear some nia. =[.
nvm. =]

By Calvin Salve, Oregon, U.S.
"Suicide bombers escape the harsh reality of dealing with life in this world: hunger, death of loved ones, frustration and tears.they dont see the carnage they caused or the grieving relatives of the victims. instead, they get a free ticket out of the world, leaving sorrow and anguish behind them. Heroes are THOSE whu stay and help others through the suffering, regardless of the pain."

i agree..
however.. if i can be a HAPPY coward,
i realli dun mind committing suicide
blasting myself into bits..
dun need funeral yeah..
i m dead.. and no one would annouce i am dead..

CO zhe me le?
saying u cant this and that would not do you any good.
onli practising harder would be the onli avenue out.
CO is hopeless le? where were the good golden days? (or do we even hav a genuine period of that TIME) why?
sec4 batch are THAT good? not trying to humble ourselves, but seriously we arent.
we have our own problems too..
wateva it is.. i hope CO will try harder..
if tried le still cant, jiu DOUBLY, TRIPLY harder ba.
all the best SCCO! My blessings upon dear SCCO!

every teacher has his strengths and weaknesses.
人非圣贤.
hai.. but.. i dunno. she has got too much motives.
jus hope i m the outcast.. and not cause a kind of propaganda. sorry.
i will also try my best..to DOMINATE =]
every aspect u can think of..i will do it my shot..
studies, music, fitness, love, computer programming, personality, everything.
since u r pushing me to the corner, bullying me with ur cute pet M. PIG,
i can no longer be the young boy whu sits there and cry, waiting for my mum's help
and that would b really too late, when u n your pet escaped.
i would hav to stand up for myself and kill your pet.. before u kill me..
and you would grief about ur pet and have no time to retaliate.
enough..! lets jus wait...

bac to SCCO in '08... for my beloved jnrs and QAD ONLI! =]=]

2007-06-25T21:28:00.000+08:00

什么是快乐？
我不懂
因为我太傻了

first dae of sch.
tired. i believe i can sleep at 11.30 tonight.
cos i was still energtic even at wee hours during holidays.
i learnt from yh that he got a thai aunt..
no wonder he so AH GUA la!
=]=]

2007-06-24T10:37:00.001+08:00

He who has injured thee was either stronger or weaker than thee. If weaker, spare him; if stronger, spare thyself.
--William Shakespeare
--Greatest English dramatist & poet (1564-1616)

and yes, what an BATTLE with him.
i was onli self-defensing
he looks stronger..
and i will spare myself.

2007-06-23T11:16:00.000+08:00

The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.
--- Eleanor Roosevelt

2007-06-22T19:54:00.000+08:00

LaCRImation..
my lacrimal glands filled too much of lipocalin, lactoferrin, lysozyme and lacritin
i cant no longer control le..
and there they went.. rolling down my cheeks.

Sorry!

2007-06-22T11:20:00.001+08:00

thank you for being there for me, whenever i need u!

2007-06-22T00:28:00.000+08:00

imagine..
standing on the edge of the cliff
the sea welcomes u with the crushing waves
ready to send u to heaven
will u do it? or wat is going thru ur mind?
or anything u cant leave behind?

xuanhan says,
" aa.. i also dunno lei. i needa clear my mind first"

waves crushed on the shore harder..
he saw the sea "separated" into two
his ancestors sae "come, accompany us, its paradise but a boring one, accompany us la!"

xuanhan says nothing
he dun hav gd memories in this world.
he would rather give his grand piano up than to suffer on Earth
he is hurt. and gone forever.

FOOL'S PARADISE!
ahh... ah gong.. ah ma.. long time no see lei.
u all still so healthy as usual ar? haha.
miss u all man. down there is living hell lei..
finaly can reunion le! =].

2007-06-21T21:21:00.000+08:00

went to see this year's de MOECO concert.
nice =].
the new composed piece by Iskandar was cool man! haha.

to miss lim:
i m willing to go bac to perform during next yr's Swiss Nite. haha
but yangqin de duet...? i dunno. i think i m not up to ur standard. sure pai seh!

distress to de-stress? haha
how? i dunno
i needa find Stress-Detox. =|

2007-06-19T14:47:00.000+08:00

A friend in power is a friend lost!

2007-06-19T00:08:00.000+08:00

Death could be so beautiful.
why?..

to lie on the bed of death
to lie in the cold hard coffin
with everything silent and still
to have no yesterdae
to have no tomoro
to forget time
to have peace
to be still FOREVER

Death is Power=]

2007-06-18T16:32:00.000+08:00

can you jus stop it!?

ALM!

Say "N" "O" NO!

2007-06-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

loving someone is jus like loving a gz.
u see, when u love someone too much,
he/she gets too used to it, then u suffer..
tts jus like gz, playing it too hard, u get blisters
compare to yang qin and piano, u can bang it, whack it, u wun get hurt.
when u r getting afresh with the person? or wateva u call that..
u get hurt too.. in some ways or another la.
jus like changing the 21 strings off my gz, giving it 1 whole set of new strings cause all my fingers to sore. =|

dun ever insult ppl.
or even call them names.
u see.. u hav to THANK them once again..
stupid ppl are there to make the others look clever.
there is alwaes a second after the first.
u score 30/100 for bio.
i score 15/100 for bio.
and i m giving u a chance to b proud of urself.
isnt it? haha. so thank me.
cos in fact, both of our results arent good..
yesh! they are atrociously(mrs koh used it) bad!

i sometimes really ask myself.
wat is fate actualli?
some ppl enjoy great, luxurious lives, yet they dun hav to work.
some enjoy.. but work as hard.
some ppl can get awae wif troubles..
some ppl jus simply cant.
some ppl's attitudes arent that good
but they are still able to hav a wide circle of friends..
some jus simply dun hav a friend. they are loners.!
why?why?why?

todae went bb..
had a kind of exchange.
went bac to perform JUS FOR SCCO. haha.
feels realli good! =]=]
i realli like the yun he.. by.. the primary sch students?sad song.. =[..
got scco, spco and bbco.
mr lee mus b deadbeat by now. lol.
one go conduct all the wae.
pei fu bu yi ar!!!

2007-06-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

Do you alwaes see the bottle as half-filled or half empty?
so common a test of one's character..
i mean there is no such thing as half... how u noe when is half anyway? =.=
so does that mean u never noe whu is optimistic or pessimistic?
there are alwaes reasons for reasons.
there are alwaes >360 points of views of a thing.
it realli depends whu looks at it.. depends on how u look at it.
definitely, be happy than not, live life to the fullest..
it isnt easy to b a human being, cherish is wat u gonna do! =]

' You are fired!' exclaimed Trump.
i simply dun understand y those people were in a sulk..
u see.. u should sae thank you for he is givin u a chance to try out something new.
his apprentice, a winner, but so? lol... he aint gonna learn anything ESLE new...
so whenever u r fired, sae thank you... lol. =]

eat too much of the same thing, u get sick of it.
talk too much of the same thing, u get sick of it.
play too much of the same game, u get really sick of it.
love too much of the same thing, u get used to it, and the love intensity declines.
but two amazing things when u do too much, u alwaes want to do them.
they are AMAZINGLY INCREDIBLY:::: SLEEPING and MUSIC
sleeping... i hope u guys whu love sleeping alot understand..
music, which musician quits for he hate music... sick n tired of music?
lol... if there is one, he is not a musician, music fanatic or wateva u call that in the first place lol.

holidaes..
how did this word come bout?
workaholic... it has a HOLI.
so does holidae means to work extra harder?
sleepless nite..
restless day..
24/7 on ur desk..
and yes, u r lookin for strategies.. routes.. shortcuts to the finishin point of ur sec. life.
andrewyap said 'i felt that holidaes hav jus started, yet they seem to be ending soon!'
Same sentiments! ... argh! i rather hav sch everyday... and that would nt b an excuse for teachers to give MORE MORE n MORE hws.
give me a BREAK!.. i mean it. =]

2007-06-04T15:47:00.000+08:00

kindergarden days were so naive.
you knew nothing, you never never felt stressed up.
primary school daes, you began to know a little.
streaming at p4 and psle at p6
secondary daes got worst and you never had holidaes even in JUNE and DEC
when you were the five yr old little kid.
DAMN!

haiz..
tired emotional..mentally...physically
bored inside out.
13 hours of sleep the dae before wasnt enough.
it wasnt at all! argh!
the dae after we will have dreadfull SS test..
a repetition of SA1
on fridae, we will then hav AMATHS test
covering a whole lot sum of qn from PERMUTATION, COMBINATION, APPLICATIONS OF INTEGRATION and VECTORS
i know i have to mug them, especially SS
but i simply cant lift myself and my lazy limbs.
to put my brain on the table READY to deal with every test is really impossible
i am seriously not studying them la! SIGH...

i dun wanna go KHCO as a permanent member
i dun wanna go BBCO as a permanent member
i jus wanna go SCCO and be a never-dieing supporter.
i m dead beat now.

2007-05-20T10:26:00.000+08:00

got bac all the results.
not satisfied.
obviously.

haiz.
tired and sian.
awaiting and still awaiting.
i m hopeless.
hoping against hope.

dun force me to gunshot you!
especially... Damn! damn! damn!
and of cos. dun act rich when u aint
and dun boast even if u r really rich.
cos u noe wat?
u r the people i hate!
oh! nv nv nv fan wif ur money, it dun reflect gd bout u! =]

2007-03-18T19:54:00.000+08:00

went out todae wif qh to national lib to do hw.
then jiu sian.................
and also cant find place to study..
then went to basement one
quite alot of ppl..then finally found one place.
the cushion seat... qh took out her HP.
after awhile, i saw a vacant de seat..like more comfortable
then i asked if she wanna change seat.
she said anything.. jiu move le..
i took my things...and she took hers...
except..[something esle] at 12.30+
then do abit hw lo.. cos got tok alot.
then... at 12.45+ she said hungry.. wanna go eat..
and asked 'anw, did u see my handphone? i lost it.'
i said that i din.. i tot she took it le..
then went back to find...
GONE!
i was devastated!
i called 1st time.. rang.. but no ans.
she said not silent mode.. tot gd news.
but turned out we heard no ringing sound.
then i tried again, and it said 'starhub cant get respond.....'
meaning someone took out the SIM card and dumped it awae le.
cos the fking bloody someone wan the hp.
anw its faulty.. y wan it? dumbass! fk the person!
then immediately went to report to counter.
asked if anyone passed them a lost hp..ans was 'no.'
then asked if can see cctv.. cos there are two cctvs there..
they sae onli police and the manager of the building.
i was like damn it!
then fill in particulars and description of the lost hp...blah blah
then of cos wan find police now..
then the administrator sae mayb police come down tomoro...
which is monday! i was fk up! no way! i cant wait tt long!!!
then asked where is the nearest police post.
went around..ask ask ask...
ended up... decided to call 999
then directed me to this no. that no.
finally the kallang police post said can send down policemen to NLB.
then cos i was searching... so ended up at shaw tower...
after telling the police to go to NLB... qh n me rushed back.
her feets hurt cos of her sandals.
so i took her bag.. she ran.. i ran with two bags!
wei le the hp, i will ping... even fruitless i also wan try!
then waited waited waited... for about 15-20mins.
and 3 policemen came.
then i described everything from head to toe.
then they went to see cctv, me and qh sat at the lobby..
waiting for GOOD news
after 7-10mins, they approached us..
then we never expect anything good..
jus hope to know if the hp is lost or wat..
then they sae 'onli manage to video 1/4 of the cushion..so din manage to capture the person'
then i said.. 'oh.. but then blah.........' (i forgotten)
then they sae ' honestly, it din manage to capture sofa part..
onli shelves cos books more important to them.....'
TMD! camera kum pui la! let me crush one by one. shit!
i was like helpless.. qh was listening.. ALL THE WAE!
nvm.. i know she also worried and scared!
then said thank you all those lo.
haiz... then ended up qh consoling me
i was jus sad we cant sms le.
using her old no.! argh!!!!!!
went to eat... got no appetite but then hav to eat..
qh wans me to eat. cant go hungry she said.
kept consoling me.. sae dun regret or anything de..
then went bac to nlb to study.. after awhile.. felt like watching movie..
walked around, looked at bugis junction there, dun hav that time de..
then i asked qh to sit down.. i ran all the wae to search..
all wat sim lim square...raffles hotel... no cinema!
fk up again! lost hp gd enough.. still no movie to watch.
then went to vivocity study alittle.. also alot ppl.. so onli study abit.
then jiu came bac le..

please laugh at me....
cos i cried.
less one means of communication
u can no longer tell me if u reached home safely.
u can no longer chat if u r bored and cant use msn
i can no longer wait for smses eagerly
sob...

i came back jiu write on blog le. haven change do hw anything. i cried a whole lot. cos ilu.

2007-03-15T23:22:00.000+08:00

todae went to buy gz strings.
its 55.5 bucks for jus 13 strings!
ex like SHIT!
'then went to lib study'
'studied until so happy'
'everything was so interesting'
'i wanna study hard cos i love it'
haha.

no one would understand..
xcept..=]

2007-03-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

think i played enough these three daes from sat to todae.
went to dinner
and pa said got voucher at RTC
and so went to play bowling.
first game sucked, cos it was long time since i last played.
and slowly, it improved, obvious as it was [k, i better stop before my ego goes overboard]
and mum said she dun wan play, ended up playing for my sis and said it was fun.
cos every 3mths can get voucher, so will reserve for more bowling games =]

departing SCCO is no longer jus a verbal remark
this fact is approaching as every second past
moving from the old Orchestra room to the new one.
seeing different batches of seniors leaving
the feeling, then, was definitely less anxious compared to now
it was where i feel the presence of paradise
and where i called it HOME
i can no longer perform for SCCO as a young member
i can no longer join its SYF and hopefully to get the best out of it
i can no longer teach my juniors what i have learnt
i know i still hav lots to say
i prefer to stop here and continue when i really leave my DEAR ORCHESTRA

enjoying the last moments....

2007-03-11T12:45:00.000+08:00

there went the nine tiresome weeks
so fast jiu guo qu le.
finally i can rest, for i need a breather.
i can blog something?
or to show my existence?

plucking strings is laziest, weakest section.
can we ignore all these words of misery?
and jus work towards the common goal of GOLD?
we jus hav to hav togetherness
and it will jus naturally go along with the music.

tomoro is 'HOLIDAY'
but lessons are awaiting for our return.
or teachers jus miss us too much?
mondae, CHI REMEDIAL
tues, CO
wed, MATHS REMEDIAL
thurs, (hoping for freedom)
fri, CO
sat CO....
and one week would jus pass so quickly.

if onli i can finish all my assignments
if onli i can finish practising my GZ exam
that will do enough for this coming week of 'HOLIDAYS'

estimately one mth left in SCCO
and soon, we will leave and become the ALUMNI.
jd and i tot of coming up an ALUMNI CLUB.
or mayb we dun need cos we come together naturally?
i may not shed tears like the soft-hearted
but that does not deter how sad i am.
SCCO... a potential gold orchestra!

2007-02-03T19:49:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for 'YEARS'
woah! kinda cant use to write online entries already.
nothing much bout my life.
or... hai.

I AM CRUSHED AGAIN!

i am not sure whether when i gonna heal back.
but i m realli battered.

2007-01-07T10:33:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for almost a week.
ok.. simply reason, my dad dun allow me to. lol
forget it. i am very happy to use already.

first few daes of school were ok, nothing great, nothing bad.
new teachers : mr ngoh, ms tan
the others were from sec3, and i now noe wat is cherishing sec3 teachers. =]
not to sae i dun like new teachers, jus that i m not used to it.
but i noe as time past, it will b better, rite?

went to sp on wed.
ok... new songs jus couldnt master well.
i mean the melody is alien to me la.
of cos they are well-known..
is cos i m shallow la....
gonna go bac next wed, thurs
and actualli on SUNDAE.
pls do come SUPPORT SPCO. =]=]

on friday
my music school called me to tell me
i dun hav lesson the foloing dae cos my teacher went bac to pay respects to her late father
on saturdae
someone from my section did not turn up
and was met with serious problem
i felt so sad for both of them..
and myself got bad feeling..
haiz..

my condolences to you, my dearest and greatest teacher, MISS LILY LEO
my regards to you, YAR YING SI, recover soon and see you in CO again =]=] (mr yeo said she played not bad, rite yh? i din fabricate for goodness sake)

雨过会天晴
things would jus b better as time past.
how irony time can be when time separates the beings and recovers those wounds.
wateva it is. i see the glass bottle half filled! =]

2007-01-01T00:46:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

first of all, I wanna wish everyone to be happy and healthy.
because mus heathly then can happy.
if cant healthy how to happy ne?
so mus happy.. time then will pass fast yet meaningfully.
2007, year of BOND! JAMES BOND! =]=]

i was initially in all those negative feelings
but i noe i gonna make it a happy one for u. =]=]

URS:
1st) countdown tgt again, realli beside me
2nd) BWM (not BMW =])
3rd) happy happy and no more sadness! =]
4th) my Os to be gd (PS: u wan de too high for me le la =P)
5th) SCCO: SYF GWH! (same sentiments)
6th) you prettier, me shuai-er (hmm.. i wanna be like me. cos i dun wan b ugly and cant b more handsome =X)
7th) loving loving, lovey dovey, thats wats we want. =]
8th) all seniors sec4 O's all A
9th) OUR PROMISE (which has etched in my mind)
10th) ulm, ilu, we l dumbdumb, we are happy family =]=]
11th) everyone healthy =]=] (telepathy ma? i also got wan everyone healthy)

and MINE:
1st) BWU
2nd) be happy and healthy (though '06 was a dynamic yr, it was a sad one too. i was often sick too.=|)
3rd) better family bonding (haven been close wif papa n mama n sis)
4th) get good grades (something everyone yields for =])
5th) complete all i can for p n gz ('ll b kinda stress wif them and Os at the same time)
6th) OUR PROMISE MUS ALWAES EXIST (i cant live without it, its vital)
7th) learning new things
8th) to get a new piano (mine is now a piece of wrecked one)
9th) WISHING EVERYONE IN THE PINK OF HEALTH (i mentioned earlier, cos i meant it)
10th) UALM! (hao ma? i believe in myself, also trust in u)

its a happy new year
like i alwaes do, i love u dear

we look for a new yr ahead
dun stress urself, sleep tight in bed

be happy alwaes and be sad less
i noe u can do it, do it ur best

remember our promise
and you will be the one i kiss

a year will swift so fast
let it be a meaningful one that last

when i get to see you again
be happy, and also maintain

and i believe any barrier or separation
will never beat us, whom love is with comfirmation

ilu dear! HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2006-12-30T21:19:00.000+08:00

from the dae i start seeing you
i realli noe how you feel

but i never dare to sae it out
cos i dun wan you to doubt
my feelings

until the moment i felt the truth
i jus wanna ask how do you do

it was the dae so important
and there was something i learnt

that you will alwaes love me
and i will alwaes love u
cry not, cos i will alwaes be there for u

after all the calls..
after all the talkings...
after all the crying..
after all the hurting..
i noe what u actualli meant
and i noe i have to let go.
the four AFTERS mean they were all the past
unhappy past is meant to be forgotten
all u want is a simple request..
which was coincidentally the same as me
ilu n ulm
its so simple...
you wan it to be strong... i heed ur words
i wan it to be strong too.
no one is able to break the bonds we hav
i call it COVALENT BOND! =]
i think its stronger than ionic bond rite? lol
i forgotten them all.. but i jus wan it b strong! =]=]
love u like theres no tomoro =]=]

2006-12-30T20:30:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging since 23dec.
down for a few daes.
ME and the internet.
tts y cant blog. and cant rmb wat happened.
dun wanna rmb it too...
u noe what i mean? totally bad.
it onli gets better as daes past.
and i noe it will be better as time past... not to sae daes.

wanted to go to the CO outing (wateva they called it)
and tot alot of ppl were going...
but no... and yh wt pm joson seb the other group.
they were planning to watch movie and buy bags
but i bought a new one and dun wanna waste any more money
the other group with more seniors and juniors..
were planning to cycle or iceskate if it happened to rain (oh yea it did anw)
and watch the same movie. DEATHNOTE 2--- the Last name
and papa din allow me to go..
sae cycling during wet weather is dangerous.
and iceskate was forbade by mum.
cos of those bloody frostbites.
now i dunno how to skate... honestly lol.
nvm.. will get to learn one dae (cross fingers!) i hope...

sch's reopening
and stress is welcoming =|
stress for the sec2s..sec3s..
and us! the sec4s!
damn it! i hate stress...
but i noe..after this yr..
OPPS! i tot its 2007 alr.
ok.. i mean NEXT YR...
aft next yr..
it will be so much better..
alwaes thinkin of play play play
nvm... i noe when to stress lol...
cos stress is "ALWAES THERE FOR ME"

lastly
i wan to wish
MY DEAREST SENIORS
FROM SCCO AND OTHERS
all the very best and hope that they get their desired results for Os.
i know they alwaes can do it... and they will do it.
but rmb, if its not good enough to you, its ok.. cos u did ur best! =]

2006-12-23T22:28:00.000+08:00

todae went out with teamcom.
met qh at je then tok mrt to habourfront.
hmm... i forgotten dat douby ghaut is at red line.
but we were at green line...
then funny feeling aroused
and i knew we missed bout 5 stations
so we got down and took bac.. kinda dumb!
alighted at outram
ANDREW WAS LATE!
(he said he was on purpose? haha. so wat it is true? he is LATE!)

jalan around at vivo.
had been there ytd.
came here again... woah!
though its big, i also walked until kinda sian.
then we bought tickets... supposed to be tgt
jm n ay mayb leg cramp la...
(cant blame) suddenly lost!
in the end qh n me jus walked walked walked.
had lunch at NYP. second time too!
eaten ytd night also ma.
AY ar AY...
he told me 'wei.. so we getting 3 sets and we two on dutch?'
then he suddenly 'hehehehehehehe'
i was retarded for tt moment! OMG! i m worried for AY's future..
(JM also worried ma.. cant blame)
he cant be too GAY la.. i mean HAPPY!
wat were u thinkin? =]=]

watched CURSE OF THE GOLDEN FLOWER.
qh told me the story initially..
tts y i then kinda utd..
if not sure catch no ball de..haha..
wa lao. this movie's investment like can buy 10,000 grand pianos man!
woah! woah! woah!
invested on blood!
invested on armours and weaponary!
invested on crysanthemum!
(one round was destroyed not enough, still go on wif 2nd round, siao!)
invested on GOLD! (kuku colour, rite?)
story was quite interesting.
complicated but simple enough for me.
fortunately!!!! heng ar!

my dearest teamCOM.
i love every moment spent tgt
even with those sleepless nites and tearless daes
i enjoyed it.
but i still a favour from AY and JM.=]=]
both are so carefree.. and pls alwaes do.
not ur tongues though.. they cant b too CAREFREE to swag all they wan.
pls..! =]=]

23 December 2006
i love my 7th month old de present!
yeah!!!!
ilu!

2006-12-22T16:28:00.000+08:00

ytd went wt's house do their lit prj
alittle sad cos we ended up doing one scene nia.
kinda pathetic. and they doing todae but i got gz.
and wat!? i dun hav gz le.. cos teacher not free.
aiya... sian diao! nvm nvm.
at hm also not nothing to do de.. can chat online ar =]

todae at around 11am..
haha i went to test out the shaver
charged for 45 hours i think..
haha... should b 'POWERFUL' enough to cut all those weeds
now i got a clean chin. and the more i shaved, the more shuang
alittle pervert ma? =| haha...

have been packing my table and room for bout four daes
cleared alot... wasted so much time on that
so its time to get bac to study mood le.
sch reopening.. is kinda sian de thing
but quite excited cos SYF is around the corner..
i mean it seems to be.. though its like 3 months awae.

read on spiders recently.
hmm...
mayb i should sae i din read enough so i din noe interestin facts
SPIDERS CAN SPIN WEBS AT ZERO GRAVITY.
CAFFEINE IN COFFEE CAN AFFECT THE SHAPES OF WEBS SPIDERS MAKE
SILK IN WEB CAN BE MADE AS ELEMENT OF BULLET-PROOF VEST
woah! i m so stupid that i din noe such things.

the PROMISE.
its important.
onli that can keep us alive.
keep ME alive particularly.

2006-12-20T17:04:00.000+08:00

haha... ytd's mission
i said i will talk about it.
but in the end.
i feel like keepin to myself lei.
haha...
ok i myself am an irony.
sorry =|

ytd had a long chat with db de lp.
n i knew so much bout you le.
of cos ytd is a sian dae.
but y sian when nothing can be done?
rite? haha... nvm ytd de thing jiu suan le.
i know jiu hao... at least nothing to hide le or wat. =]=]
i sian cos i care ar... =]=]
but sorry to influence u sooo much...
i m sorry...

sometimes
one must hav his limit
when he goes overboard
he might not hurt himself
but unknowingly hurt his friends..
or rather so-called "friends".
his status might not mean everything
or even so, EVERYTHING might not mean EVERYTHING
it is right to seek for happiness
on things that are his
not on those that arent his
he might treat everyone the same
but who cares?
as long as the everyone includes what is mine!
as long as you invade my privacy and steal wat is mine!
he is NOT treating EVERYONE EQUALLY
its always too late to regret
but its nv too late to stop what he is doing.
be faithful
be right
be just

PS: sensitive issue always brings harm, dun admit that you are the one i am tokin bout unless you are the one =|

2006-12-19T00:33:00.000+08:00

16dec

bac from co camp.
shant say much bout it.
hmm... mayb others' blogs alr got wat i wanna sae?
haha.. k.. i m purely lazy too.
some things i would rather keep it to myself too =]=]

even though i got the camp
that does not mean my marathon can be cancelled! =[
argh!.. wasnt gd. everything jus isnt right.

went out to eat with my ah gong, ah ma, and aunt.
steamboat.. hmm... ok..
actualli i was kinda full alr..
but yes.. my style.. STILL EAT.
nothing much also..

17dec

hmm...
slacked the whole morning..
until 2pm.
got some party at teacher's place.
ate canadian pizza..
i was so ke qi.. jus ate ate ate...
like nobody business..
but then i ate onli pizza.. so not full de =P
then until like about 5pm...
my parents came to fetch me..
we jus roam about until dinner time..
was contemplating where to eat..
ok.. (you guys might notice i love to eat, tts y i am alwaes fat)
after roaming about.. ended up in westmall..
bought some things...
then went to ate pizza hut.
hmm... they got the wrong reciepts..
and turned out..
we got two extra Pepsi, two iced water and a garlic bread.
nice one! lol...
ate pizza for the whole dae.

18dec

have been doing something important all dae long..
but of cos.. still EAT! =]
used the com until 4plus..
my papa came to fetch..
and he wanted to get a shaver for me.
cos my beard is long. lol.
aiya... shave jiu shave.. i dun realli care too..
everyone saes my beard is long..
so its time for a BEARD-CUT!

then came bac home..
mayb something went wrong in my mind...
i kept packing my table.. pack n pack n pack..
until now.. still for 4-5 piles need to pack..
will do them todae.
some bad news is inevitable!
so i hav to face it.
the pillar of support will alwaes be there for u..
jus that no matter wat... it will break down somedae.
onli without the power of love. =]=]

todae

going to school later.
heard tt they got wat dc to do.
i also got mine...
ie. to tune my gz.
jus cant stand it any longer.
then also got important 'MISSION' to complete.
=]=]..
you will noe wat i meant.. =]=]
kk..will blog bout my mission later of the dae.
zzzzzzzz

2006-12-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

todae went to sch practise solo piece.
argh! one hour practise peanuts onli.
therefore decided to stay bac one more hour.

went to westmall
finally got my ZINC bag..
meanningful huh? =.=
contrast..(to andrew)?
lol.. wateva!

then ate at pastamania.
ate SPICY chicken and drank PASSIONfruit.
does that depicts my feelings? character and attitude? lol
i m no pervert..excuse me.
simply.. the food is nice so i chose them. =]

there came a santa claus. =.=
i was so damn pai seh.
i din look at him...
he stood beside me..
'HO HO HO.. Merry Xmas.. Are you married yet?'
and i said..'no' with a retarded look.
he gave me a gift. coca cola sweets?
cos all his gifts are sponsored by Coca Cola ma.

tomoro co camp.
not realli excited lol.
went for it for 2 yrs.
now is third yr.
but games gonna be fun.. i guess! =]
SONATA IN C MINOR. =] MUACKS!

2006-12-12T22:21:00.000+08:00

earli earli jiu go CO
ms lim was like.. angry? haha
i can see she is pissed! ARGH!
i also scared man... then quickly go settle instru.
sat the lorry. lucky this lorry got air con.
but still burning hot. leg muscles cramped dao.haha.
reached there le... rehearsal..then actual.
yh told me (when actual de shi hou)
he still think its rehearsal lol.
then haven got the scores ready. =.=
how can la.. stupid girl girl!
performed for 30 people. lol.
its the LUNCHTIME CONCERT.
hmm.. i accompanied the SAI MA.
the strings played well...
but sorry.. i SAI it. sorry.
miss lim de GOLD JADE GOOD TALK:
even though theres onli a person as audience
we must still be professional musicians and perform to our best! yesh!

todae co no mr lee..
and so i conducted QING DIAN.
u see.. i m a first timer.
i actualli said ok cos chairlady was pekcek! =|
nvm. and so i did and it turned out bad.
ms lim said the song got feeling?! waha. how come?
okok.. after much thinkin... mayb its CO which got feeling.. not me la =.=
she also din sae i conducted until got feel... okok...

ok... todae de meeting.
my tongue jus wagged off..
and i said something which made myself veryXone zillion pai seh
haiz. okok nvm. even ms lim and ms toh tease me.
i dun play the song give ur hear le la! =|

tomoro gonna get a new sling bag.
my old bag is fungified!
wat crap! i mean.. its full of fungi la.
yes it is very disgusting. yucks!
old converse bag...ee....
let me see if i m getting a ZINC bag. =]

2006-12-11T16:08:00.000+08:00

its raining now.
i dream of many things when it rains.
and of cos, to return home safely.
and right in your warm cosy heart.
I LOVE YOU.

I WILL ALWAYS RETURN

I hear the wind call my name
The sound that leads me home again
It sparks up the fire, a flame that still burns
To you, I will always return

I know the road is long
But where you are is home
Where ever you stay, I'll find the way
I'll run like the river
I'll follow the sun
I'll fly like an eagle
To where I belong

I can't stand the distance
I can't dream alone
I can't wait to see you
Yes, I'm on my way home

Now I know its true...my every road leads to you
And in the hours of darkness, your light gets me threw

You run ike the river
You shine like the sun
You fly like an eagle
Yes you are the one
I've seen every sunset, and with all that I learnt
Is to you, I will always..always return

2006-12-08T21:30:00.000+08:00

should i b happy?
should i b sad?

went to co todae.
its fridae and mr lee came.
cos he din come on tues la.
i also waiting eagerly to practise WINDS CRESCENTI la
lol.. its a cool song.
miss toh ar miss toh..
teasing me again.
'i wanna hear the song.'
wat cheng ming qu... =.=
miss lim also teased me le.
ok ok la. play it during co camp can le ba?
by the wae its SONATA IN C MINOR =]
thank you! =]=]

finally.
cos JAY's SHANGHAI 1943 so i promised JJ...
told JJ i wanna compose 2006 de version lol
then i jus finished composing it
finally done le. lol.
its in B major. 5 sharps.
i was trying to complicate the whole song.
lol. i m hao lian la. but then hear le de ppl think its a simple passage la
care to hear it? lol.
i will sure play it for u.

the pace fastened.
the heart beats harder.
the tears rolled profusely.
now i understand....
i made u cry.
i m sorry
i m sad

2006-12-06T16:31:00.000+08:00

back from shang hai trip
very tiring, a little jetlag.
but quite fruitful de.
let me recall them day by day ba...

26/11 and 27/11
reached airport le. at about 11.16pm
first person i saw was mr quek.
he also leaving singapore.
called her 14 times. omg! no answer.
finally the 15th time was responded.
i was relieved. told her to take care.
cos very worried. very very miss her la.
took photos before going in, farewell to my pa, ma and sis.
=]=]

going into custom check was troublesome.
first was my thumbprint. it was like invalid? unclear?
but then after much checking
they found out they nv scan my passport properly =.=
then second was that
i hav a foldable scissors
confisticated and returned onli when i reached sh
plane ride.. lol.
quite fun ba... cos haven been riding on a plane since p4
about 4h50mins to reach there.
meanwhile played nintendo's supermario bros
listened to audios
watched videos and movie trailers
nv reali sleep on plane...
slept 2 hours like tt onli.
shang fei and junda never sleep dao. cos of those movies. pro!

reached sh le!
got lugguage and my SCISSORS bac!
the place was very cold.
and jie ying was so childish lo.
purposely breathing in n out
cos there was mist? wateva u call that..
we playing also la..
but she is playing until very the happy
sat two hours of bus ride
from pudong int. airport to shanghai yan an senior high school.
listened to mp3 and fell asleep le.
reached the school. there as a signboard.
saying 'WARM WELCOME TO SWISS COTTAGE....' in chi.
was quite touched man. lol
the weather was rainy
imagine wif coldness and rain, how COLD can it be?
checked into hostel first, same rm wif jd. (9308)
waited for lunch at 11am. watched tv.
played around. packed lugguage. settled down.
realised all the water got funny smell.
but our room de is best ba! =]
had lunch wif miss toh, miss tan and mrs low.
the food was... woah! lol. like feast lei.
first meal jiu so many veg le. miss toh sadded man!

then it was bad news for us
::::: 12 ppl from PA group separated into 12 diff classes :::::
shang fei and i had same feelings ba.
more of scared than excited
then everyone get to know each other
and my 2 appointed partners were Zhou Er Mi and Angela.
they very sociable. more friendly than i tot.
kept introducing diff parts of school to me
as we made our wae to their classroom [CLASS NINE]
said hi to everyone and their form teacher [ZHAO LAO SHI]
made an impromptu self-introduction in chi.
regretted that i din sae much
a few boys introduced themselves too..
song an, yang chen, yi nan... etc etc.
this is a class of jokers man.
very friendly funny, jus like any of our class in swiss
that includes their history teacher, wang lao shi
that is also the first teacher whom i noe and thay said he was cute

History lesson
teaching method of histroy was very different
besides it is in chi, they teach them thru forms of constructive games
we learnt jus bout our country..and little bout others'
they learnt their country plus others' that were very detailed.
when i was there, they were learing Rome.

English lesson
they did a presentation on thanksgiving dae.
all in english, and they asked me to answer a qn.
i answered and they dunno what i tokin about. =.=
haiz. forget it...
miss cai is their teacher. very strict on gd reading skills
that dae was her bd. sang a bd song.
and then from that, i knew my buddy's bd was 26/11
there was an eye exercise.
it is done every 2hours after 2 periods of lessons.
exactly the same as wat we did in pri sch.
think we copied them de la

Maths lesson
their BASIC maths is equivalent to our Additional Mathes.
imagine!!! argh! i m so inferior man!
they were learning functions when i was there.
they called it HAN SHU..
they learnt odd and even functions, which were new things to me.
they are more in to the process and understand y this y that...
than getting the answer rite!

rushed wif ermi to table tennis arena.
on the wae, i saw 9-10 bb courts, running tracks
then saw a piece of land.
ermi told me wanted to construct a pool de but not enough money.
saw mr sashi n eliz at the table tennis there.
played wif them until they closed the room.
then i went back hostel. saw jd n shu fen.
roamed bout the school wif them. then went back hostel again
crapped wif 2 sfs, jm, jd, jy and miss toh until six.
waited for dinner lo.
i ate WELL! two full bowls of rice. then we got an ice cream each!
RMB 3.00 which was about SGD60cents
we went crazy.
went out there without jacket
walkin in cold wind while eating ice cream.
jieying n i cant take it.
my finger tips were freezing
ears n nose like dropping off.
then came bac wif her in the shelter.
back for discuiison, reflections.
mr sashi kinda told us off..
mayb abit serious ba...
did the presentation rehearsal then sleep le.

28/11
woke up at 6.15am
ate breakfast but did not reali enjoy it.
soya bean milk got burnt smell
and noodles like rubber
timsum was cold, oily and fatty
ermi and angela waited for me downstairs
they had their morning self-study period
then its morning-exercise
very very cool moves. more cool than our aerobics ba!
din manage to follow.
stood there in the cold air wif my tracksuit.
so damn bloody cold.

Maths lesson
i understood alittle
they used alpha and beta man!
not look down on them ba
jus surprise.. r expected them to use something different?

Physics lesson
they were learning inertia
acceleratin is jia shu?
velocity is shu du?
force is li?
still got many many..
din manage to catch it though
and learning the first law of Newton

PE lesson
i knew this would b more interesting than sitting in the classroom all dae long
i did long jump
i monkey see monkey do la...
i managed to hav a chance to jump..
the teacher PRAISED me..
=.=
cos he said first time like tt not bad la..
had basketball wif them.
scored one goal onli.... lol. they so pro la.
then did 26 push-ups, is cool down de exercise ba..
not punishment.

had lunch. and damn! i ate a small piece of beef..
its like rubber... dunno y the red hair like it so much lei..

Chemistry lesson
they were learning oxidation and reduction
i noe cos yan tao got told me b4..
but they learnt so detailed until i dun understand.
evereything including the ABCD for the four options were in chi
jia,yi,bing ding!!! argh!

IT lesson
they have four com labs if i dun remember wrongly.
they were learning Visual Basic.
looks interesting but i dun understand at all
then was eye exercise
they were laughin at me... =.= cos i was doing it.

Chinese lesson
they were in groups and appointed to read the poems.
the poems were so deep, i meant the meanings la
they still can explain it, giving impromptu feelings about it
showing that they truly understood the poem

Last period..
they had phy test.
i got a copy of it too..
of cos i din do la..
onli see see look look..
it was so so so difficult! argh! can go mad de.
meanwhile jiu do my chi hw.

then went the com lab
the 2 SFs did the presentation we did over at s'pore
chey! shang fei did not do the extra actions lo.
when rehearsing, she was like so enthu
the band did theirs
haha.. got one wrong chi word and eng words used.
no choice. we are singaporeans.
the teacher-in-charge introduced bout the school
mr sashi was like very serious
dunno he understand anot
then he wished to know bout thier PE so asked miss toh translate
until so funny haha. gdgd effort though. he tried to speak chi.

had dinner, BEEF soup!
lucky i din take it.
cos seemed like i had uclers on my tongue
after my first bite of beef in 15 yrs
then there was frog legs, i tot it was chicken or fish lol.
tasted good too.
i told the ppl on the table
that the Shanghai students called their teachers like Shan-ge
like brother like tt.
then called miss toh Jing-jie
and mr sashi Sashi-ge.
and sounded like sexy girl? =|

had sharing session again.
half hour became one hour le.
voiced out many things. lol.
jd n i went over to the girls' room
then atmosphere very spooky.
before we went to their rm, jd called jy's phone.
a male answered.
when we went to their rm, we tested in the presence of jy
then no one answered this time. plus jy's phone not ringing
they said got someone knocking on their sliding door..
jia min said got force de. realli feel like got ppl knockin de.
i go see.. no ppl lei.
had a good chat wif JJ? lol.. ""i miss ByeBye""
and went back to sleep le.

29/11
woke up at six exactly.
jd still asleep.
breakfast was soya bean milk again.
is this so famous in china?
i tried it no matter wat..
pastry and wanton soup were nice though =]=]
jm and jy were late
we finished our meals they still in their room
i went up to find them, and jy was funny.
she said, 'ok lets go' without her shoes on.
haha...

today's morning exercise
i followed a little
and they promised that they gonna teach me

Physics lesson
in their lab, wa lao. so bloddy cool lo
techonology is on their side.
y? they jus hav to do the experiments
best fit straight line graph was done on the com
and all results will be sent over to their teacher's com.
i felt that this wae, pupils can understand better.
in the sense that pupils can comprehend the whole experiment
then to divert thier attention to calculate those complicated figures

while walking bac to class
they talked bout my name
saying like my "surname" is very unique
they tot XUAN was my surname.
and HAN was my name
cos they alwaes call ppl full name.

Maths lesson
still functions..
to them trial and error is a good learning process
this wae they can understand and learn more
after lesson, they taught me 2 parts of the morning exercise

English lesson
we had a kind of debate.
i started the ball rolling.
very very fun =]=]
song an, a student from the opposition
was very enthusiastic. and rebutted every statement made.
the class is divided into 2 groups, one is for, the other is against
after lesson, they taught me the 3rd part of the morning exercise

Social studies lesson
seemed very understandable
there came came a part about S'pore.
about its economy de.
they suddenly ask me to ans.
i was shocked, blanked lol.
i also dunno wat to sae about it.
if wan me sae.. i also sae something bad de. wun sae gd bout singapore
so i better not sae.

had lunch outside the private room we usually were in.
cos all teachers came over to yan an. lol.
then waited for bus to pick us up
went to play bb.
james fell
reached no.1 affliated and waited until 4pm for the students to be released.
heard from teacher that james' condition was serious
and suspected a crack or some sort?
very unfortunate
he had to be sent bac to singapore the next dae.
met the old shanghai peeps
they got us presents =]=]
and brought us to eat steamboat.
Nan Hua Huo Guo was our dinner
i saw big big de bones.. i tot is beef soup
from then, i sian all the wae.
sat taxi wif jd n yan tao bac to hostel.
told yan tao yeye why i sian.
1) 'beef' soup i felt so bad... i m a buddhist! =|
2) cant meet them anymore
3) din get presents for them
we got food for miss toh, mr sashi.. everyone la.
cos wanna ask for forgiveness for coming bac late.
yantao called to my hostel and said," wei..fool.. its mutton la. lamb's bones la."
i was like so relieved!!!! =]
cleared some food wif shang fei, shu fen, jd and jy..
and threw lots awae.
then rest awhile cos too full.. then sleep le.

30/11
breakfast yue eat yue little.
but got used to the 'burnt smell' de soya bean milk le.
morning exercise. i left my coat in class so was very cold.
argh! i managed to do a little =]=]

Music lesson
taught about classical music, sonatas and other movements.
they were to compose a story out of a music.
my buddy did it. and the teacher said it was a good one! =]=]

Chemistry lesson
the teacher started of scolding the students.
bored....

Chinese lesson
full of contemporary poems.
bored again..

PE lesson
they having 1000m test. and passing time was 4 mins
i did not run lol. too lazy
then went to play bb on my own.
then after awhile, they came to play bb le.
i scored 2 opening goals, a few three pointers! =]=]
din realli do well cos it was too freezing la.

had lunch. lunch was good. it was alwaes good.
then drank yoghurt. and kop many others de yoghurt. lol
save it for myself? lol.. no la. i shared lo. =]

Physics lesson
F=ma, i understood a little
comeon, its in chinese lei! argh! so fan la!

Computer lesson
trying to do a 3d model
but failed
jiu like lost track from others.
then forget it.. went to hibernation =]=]
then it was eye exercise =]

Maths lesson
bored again. i was getting realli sleepy.
no activity and so sian! =|

English lesson
the same boring topic again.
'every dog has its day'
'its raining cats and dogs'
'i am dog tired'
'never teach an old dog new tricks'
then teacher abit kuku?
u see...
she taught them..
'everyone is gone'--- flawless statement
then 'everyone is come'--- flaw statement!!!
where got such thing de.
then still sae wat 'on the other arm'?
i onli heard b4 on the other hand... lol.. not arm

had music exchange..
not realli exchange la..
they performed for us onli la.
the teacher is egoistic la.
i felt frustrated lo... bu fu man!!!
at first they asked me to perform gz..
i dun wan cos i too lan liao.. then sure give them insult de..
then jd went to perform sai ma =]=]
cool man! lol... then the teacher continued to hao lian their co.
argh! i said.. i play piano ba. =]=]
SONATA IN C MINOR. =]=] for SCSS and SCCO de!

after dinner
we went shopping
i spent 300 bucks lol.
bought for SH buddies, daniel, fiona, sinting, huixing and jiejie de.
bought a classical album of Beethoven de for myself. =]
contented!!!
when reached hostel..bathed le jiu write postcards for buddies
wrote until 1+am. then sleep le.. too tired.

1/12
todae 2SFs late for breakfast
think they wrote postcards until very late
last dae in this room to hav breakfast le.

went to class
had a simple farewell party
said a short speech ba
exchanged gifts
they suddenly asked me to perform something
sae can sing...dance... or teach them english???
lol.. i felt obliged lo.. so sang 'My Love' by westlife
din really regret too..=]=] nearly cried but din =]=]

back to original lessons le..

Chinese lesson
poems again...
dun understand
dun understand la..

Computer lesson
managed to use internet.
tagged ppl's blog and mine too.
checked hotmail and friendster.

b4 eng lesson
they said something about going to germany, france and us
very very ex. going germany bout RMB61k, france about RMB58k..us i forgotten liao

English lesson
boring shit again la.
dog dog dog... alwaes this topic

History lesson
played a game
its like from the first row.. then pass message to the last row
this is to see how history has changed since the earli daes
its onli a diff of 5 rows? then there is a change in the info le.
imagine the 5thousand yrs of history of china..
how much changes had been done? no one noes.

leaving Shanghai Yan An Senior High School le...............
after having lunch, went to find ermi.
can sae this lunch is the smallest share of my whole trip.
cos i wanna get their school's badge. lol. very meaningful de souvenir.
when leaving, jy cried wor. very very sad like tt..
aiyo. kept sms-in them lol...

went to tourist attractions le.
1st) Shanghai Museum
walked the whole place our own.
took photos outside the people's square
2nd) Shanghai Urban Development Planning Centre
cool models! woah!!!
they already made plans for Shanghai 2020

then feasted at Dragon Boat House
near Huang Pu Jiang
very good food..
with many ppl eat together.. its fun lo.

3) then went to Oriental Pearl TV Tower
took the elevator up... there is a person IC
then she pressed 263th storey.
i tot it gonna take bout a few minutes to reach up there?
no.. she said 48 secs.
then the elevator dun go floor by floor..
its like from 01 to 04 to 08 to 16.....etcetc..

got bac to hotel. Shanghai Silkroad Grand Hotel
the shower like spa sia. lol..
got 3 modes de.. lol... one of them is kinda massage de ba
met qian yun, jiaying, jiwen and qiaoli.
talked alot, i supposed
sent them off all the wae. was in short pants.. then damn bloody cold.
then went bac.. very fast jiu sleep le. cos too tired..

2/12
woke up.
very comfortable cos not too cold.
ate breakfast.. alot alot. elizabeth got take a photo of it.
=P cant finish.. cos it tasted bad.

went to lu xun park..
saw many interesting things.
from playing erhu... to dancing
to singing to calligraphy on road with water.
sua jian with JD lol..

went into lu xun memorial.
walked around ourselves...
i spent 200bucks on a souvenir. lol.
nvm la i dun care la. once in a while its ok ba.

then went to Former Residence of Soong Ching Ling
brought about by the person IC.
she noes how to play piano! =]
her bro.. Soong Zi Liang was a violinist! woots. cool.
very interesting.

had lunch at restaurant.
then went to science centre.
think about 3-4 times bigger than our science centre ba lol
on the wae something bad happened. argh! forget it!
walked wif shu fen around.
many different kinds of things.
different animals.. insects..
human body.. universe and technology.
then took bus to hangzhou. journey bout 4hours ba.
during dinner.. the teachers got childish?
they played open-numbers and loser had to eat the food.

got bac to hotel.. sharing session with mrs low, mr sashi and miss toh.
bathe le. then go to sleep le... yawnZZZ

3/12 and 4/12
cant really remember much also.
went to west lake.
general yue fei mausoleun
guo's villa
1)dragon well tea plantation
bought a can of tea leaves for ah ma.
they sae can improve eyesight
improve health.
improve figure lol. buy for ah ma suan le.
its RMB300 lei. poof!
2)wu zhen
when reached here.. my lower body all froze like tt.
but still walked around.
very very old. lol. really got ppl live de. lol
3)shanghai book store
bought afew books for cousin
a book for myself and one for her.
lol. i bought a cheng yu de. lol. its from children section
but quite chim. mus read. sure got help! yesh!
4)night visit to the bund
this place is damn bloody nice lo.
took some photos. lol. really the modern side of SH

5/12
earli morning..
something bad happened too.
forget. shant sae it.
then when to cheng huang miao shopping district.
they all buying things. lol.
i so gd la. helped jie ying take things lol.
until my fingers from red to purple to yellow lol.
last minute bought a jade de keychain for mama. =]=]
think its fake de ba. cos of the cheapo price.

then went to airport le.
called my mum to ask her if she gonna fetch me..
then heard my mum's voice.
suddenly home sick... wanna quickly go hm.
flight delayed.
lol. its a small world?
i met keeyao.. a friend of beng how's.. a friend of mine.
lol... he was going hm the same flight as us.
cool.

my trip jiu jiang ba......
i promised jiamin.. i gonna compose SHANGHAI 2006 =]=]
hope can make it ba. =]=]

remorsed i was. i m sorry. my dear.. my friend..

2006-11-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

wat a week!
hav been "overtiming" for almost 5 daes
9am -9pm? =|

got SFY piece's conductor's scores
FINALLY. woots!
i love the song too much le.
tryin out and figuring how it sounds like
with the whole orchestra.
its like damn cool.
also very touching

todae went bbco after SWISS OPEN HOUSE
its raining suddenly?
and i wet st's SHENG
was actually running with it.
but i think i too fat..ran too slow le
pai seh ar. chair lady. =|
good foresight she has =]
reached botanic garden.
performing halfwae.. going sleep le.
on off on off.. wa. can die lo.
lucky nv play big wrong notes!
recorded WEST WINGS. cool!
wanna hear.. can ask from me =]=]
i think its nice ba!

tomoro going shang hai le.
not excited ba.
cos its not wat as it was planned initially.
disappointed.
+
todae. hai.
=
very very SIAN.
will definitely write everything down
in the REFLECTIONS!@ damn it!

the lonesome tear goes down my cheek again....
mulutuhmph! =]=]=]=]=]=]=]=]
no more SIAN... onli TREASURE AND CHERISH!
i love her.

my dearest blog...
fearless and strongest one.. =]=]
shall be back on 5dec after 10pm
till then....
=]

2006-11-23T19:56:00.000+08:00

counting down dreadfully.
=| disappointed la.

20 Nov:
its a action-pact dae.
hmm.. first its going to sch.
deco.. i helped abit..
then went friend's house do some piano things.
din realli hav enough time.
thus did get wat i want
which is a full recording of all the songs i played!
haiz....
then supposed to meet jy at 6.
but i went 5.40.
she reached at 5.58.
she isnt late, but practically she is.
went jd house
did the presentation

21 nov:
straight awae from jd house went to sch le.
got practise for nie all those.
then rite after co got tuition.
full time again

22 nov:
todae got nie performace.
earli earli go sch.
practise also la.
until late at nite.
the deco de ppl also this late..
thanks le ppl! =]=]

2006-11-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

CHECK THIS OUT:

TYPE 'MISERABLE FAILURE' AT GOGGLE SEARCH.
THEN LOOK AT THE FIRST FINDING.
DUN BE SHOCKED. =]=]=]

credits: my lovely tuition teacher lol.

2006-11-19T19:01:00.000+08:00

went for bbco todae.
hmmm...
yes lian-ing lo.
oh yesh. there is another yangqin-er
oh no. i started to play zhong ruan and liu qin scores
mr lee asked me to. no chioce.
he reminded me bout SAI ma.
askin me to lian..
i said ok... cos i better do... if not no SAI to GEK will pai seh lo.
anyway its cool. cos there is a solo part lol. cool!
lunching at pastamania wif bb ppl.
sian cos no one to tok to...
not cos of the practising.
but at least got swiss seniors lo.
got discount ba. cos of kelvin again...
he worked there b4 so got discount.
went bac again for rehearsal wif west winds, indian group and malay group
lol... the malay conductor.. lol..
so damn funny.
he dun tap his feet to count the beat
he dun clap his hands to count the beat
he nodded his head... VIGOROUSLY! lol.
and one more funny thing.. lol.
i better not sae.. its RACism =.=
and have practise for long... then got ten min break.
its like... nvm. lol...

my black leather shoes were torn.
my qin zhus were breaking
jus pasted them bac wif ELEPHANT glue
' BONDS IN 3 SECONDS '
its false! =|.. i applied pressure and blew gentle wind...
its still sticky but yes, it sticks well la.

will be busy tomoro.
why am i saying such things...
when i am ALWAES BUSY!?!?
lol... nvm. used to it liao.
morning going sch... will help out wif the deco.
for SCCO =]..
then going friend's house do piano things.
and sh trip powerpoint!
at junda's house
still deciding whether to stay.
shall bring clothes
in case we worked till mn.
diediedie. then the foloing dae...
after co (to 6pm)still got eng tuition(7pm to 9pm).
u sae will die anot? wun die also will faint la!
POOF! sigh many times also useless la.

2006-11-18T19:35:00.000+08:00

haven being blogging
nothing much to talk about too..
rather boring holidaes
packed. constructively! =]

one week more. to SH trip.
from the initial 51 days to the present 7-8daes.
boo! was excited at first.
but the excitement subsides.
y? cos there is one reason and one reason onli.
was quite disappointed
that was less one day cos of bookin tickets
that we arent going to the music conservatory
and pre-trip needs alot of research and reports.
should have agreed to go HK with BBCO. nvm.
adjust to the changes n b happi.

many activites in co.
performing from old folks' home to NIE int. science conference.
then swiss open house, which is something i cant make it.
hmmm... cos of the awards celebration thing from YFC-YMCA.
ms lim said i wei le ming li er gave co up.
haiz.... its... nvm. i also dunno how to sae.

jd asked me whether wanna stay over his house anot.
cos its like
i will b going to his house at late afternoon
around 4-5pm on mondae
and also needa complete the presentation by tues
so sure do until very late.
then tues got co at 9 for NIE and rolling walnuts practice.
i m rather not sure.
cos tt means i needa bring many stuffs. rather clothes
cant believe jia min n jie ying agreed to stay overnight.
hai. jus see how it goes.. i myself also not sure.

last words?
not really... jus wanna sae..
sometimes, being DUMB isnt bad at all
dumb as in? figure it out urself =]
dun be "stupid". X

2006-11-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

ytd movement of yq was suck!
i had muscle aches all over.
palms were 'TEARING"
damn!...hai..

went to bbco todae.
lol.. one person..?
wateva it is... thanks kelvin lol.
i mean at least he did come to talk to me.
and moved me behind so at least we can talk alittle
and i can see mr lee conducting
lol.... sinting asked me if i regretted? lol..
no. i din regret.

tomoro's sch again...
and relabelling of instruments!
OMG! i can die lei..
relabelling all over again.
let do it a nice one... one shot!
then no repetition le..! pls!
its tedious la...

one place in my heart
one song
one meaning
one YOU! =]

2006-11-10T23:26:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging for almost a week
wat had happened? i dunno... lets see

6th Nov.
JD asked me if i wanna watch movie...
then i agreed... then asked him call more ppl
in the end jio dao fiona and hui ying.
pathetic de la. four people
joseph came last min. and see la... sit different seats
watched the grudge 2..
hmm... wat can i sae about it? boring? thrilling?
hy n fiona were like screaming...
and no one esle is doing the same thing
fiona was beside me... and she goes 'wtf wtf...oh..finally bright le...'
noisy de jiejie! argh!
then i saw things that i shouldnt haha.
wanna noe pls ask me straight... i mean its like... LOVE IS IN THE AIR? lol

7th Nov.
had bio and chem remedials.
followed by co until 6
and tuition from 7 to 9
omg! i worked overtime
no pay though.. dead beat was me!
lol. but can sae is gd le..
i mean... see...
my saturdays are packed like tt...
or worst..... wateva it is... it's over! poofs!

8th Nov.
remedials and math enrichments till 3.30
nothing much.
again. tired is my bottomline

9th Nov.
remedials again....
oh god.. nothing to talk about

10th Nov. todae
11.46pm.... was jus 2 hours after i reached home
remedials again...
co too.. but left earli... at bout 4.05pm?
ms lim dun seem happy bout it...
oh man.. i m sorry.. hai
went to marina square..
to collected the Cert. of participation
for the YFC for VSA?
and roamed around..ate dinner....
jiamin said she could be extreme
and indeed, she was..! she kept quiet for sooo long!
i m impressed but jus not her! lol... i want her to talk again...
andrew was.... 'LOTSA THINGS TO SAE'
haha... qh was quiet alwaes.
i was happy.... n am happy....n will be happy
i m a shit! =]

i prefer to keep certain things to myself..
i m selfish. i like to enjoy certain moments alone.
i m selfish. i cherish and treasure every moment.
i m selfish. i want nothing esle but u.
i m selfish. i wun let anyone hav u, i love u.
i m selfish. i looked things at a different view, usually negatively, stubbornly.
i m selfish. i foresee the worst scenario and so i m able to grab hold of u, tight!
i m selfish. i made you do sacrifices, like i did for u, but little.
i m selfish. i wan your love. but tts cos i gave u mine.
i m selfish. no matter how fate has decided, i m gonna change it to a better one.
u r funny...but cute!
u r wat i see... a girl, seems so ordinary, yet stands out with a certain X-factor.
u r the one.

2006-11-05T23:33:00.000+08:00

chalet ended on 3 Nov - 10.38am?
had too many chicken wings? about 7-8
then had serious sore throat
but by drinkin more than 5 litres of chinese herbal tea my mum brewed
i m prefectly fine now...

shall i describe the chalet?
or NOT?
aiya... nothing much. i jus enjoyed three things
1) BBQ
2) CARD GAMES
3) GHOST STORIES
had bad experiences, argh! shant elaborate.

realised my holidaes are packed
and not even a dae i can rest entirely
except for SUNDAES, i meant that is wat it should be
weekdaes' mornings are packed wif remedials?
lead to more homework, shorter datelines?
omg! award ceremonies, performance, open house, shang hai trip, co camp, music exams
die die die! when can i really sit down, quietly and enjoy others' music?
poof! tomoro you shi remedial le..

oh ya!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, YAN TAO!
happy birthday to u!
happy birthday to u!
happy birthday to yan tao!
happy birthday to u!